It's Complicated.....

So - I changed my status on facebook to "It's Complicated" - Those two little words say such big things. My life is complicated - my relationship is complicated - but I think I may be on the right track. I have big decisions to make and I have so many people that are affected by these decisions that I have to really step back and look at the big picture.

On a different note, Grandpa turned 94 years old today. He wasn't having a very good day, so I feel bad that I didn't drive over there and see him in person - but life gets in the way - I wasn't sure I wanted to go when he was so confused - it would just upset me and him and Grandma....I have decided that I do not want to live to be that old!

AND some GREAT news - I am starting to workout again with Hillary. She is a fantastic person that helped my friend Neesha so much this year - and this summer she really was starting to help me - so even though 5:15 am is awfully early for me - I think it will be worth it in the long run!!!!! YEAH Hillary & Neesha for getting this big butt moving!!!

Happy

So - I am getting happy - it is going to involve some changes in my life, but I am getting happy!

I deserve it! My kids deserve a happier Mom.

J