WOW What a Year So Far....

So - I truly suck at this whole blogging thing - but I need to write today - At the end of  April, 2012 I had some major changes in my life! I am currently living alone in my Grandparents home in Riverdale. Tom and I made the decision to not be together any longer and truthfully, I would not be able to afford the house and do the upkeep - He thinks he can afford it with no problems, so he stayed there - However with the house stays Katey. We did not want to cause her more upheaval than absolutely necessary and she wanted to stay with Dad so he would be ok - One of the hardest things I have ever had to do was to say good-bye to her on the first day I moved. It has not gotten any easier over the last three weeks either. I HATE going home to an empty house each night - I HATE being alone - This is one hard thing to do. However, the stress level in my life has been cut down because I am no longer living in a tension/stress filled home. I NEVER wanted to get a second divorce in my life - I tried for years to make this work, but it wasn't getting better and I wasn't happy. I have been told that I deserve happiness - and I am starting to think that maybe I do!

Throughout this process I have been leaning heavily on my friends - A few in particular - Neesha introduced me to the most amazing person in Hillary and together these two gals are getting me to feel better about myself and making me realize that I can be healthy and happy. I don't know where I would be without these two! I know I would still be 50 pounds heavier than I am now - so a BIG Thank You to Hill and Neesha! I also got the opportunity to go to New York with Hillary to see my hero, OPRAH in person! This trip was an absolutely amazing experience. I was in the same room with Oprah! The atmosphere was so incredible - It made me really believe that I can do anything I set my mind to. Tony Robbins was on with her and I was moved by him also - He was telling us to write our own story - change it if it isn't what we want. I can do anything I set my mind to - if I just try hard! I am trying hard to change the story that is narrating my life in my head - It is a hard step, but I know I can do it!