Closure....

Yesterday was Gary Cope's funeral - he is my real dad. I have been all sorts of things this week - frustrated, sad, angry, confused, lost - just all around emotional. I saw him two hours before he passed away - I went to his house to see him and I was able to say goodbye to him - to tell him that I was sorry and to tell him that I forgave him - Mom asked me to tell him that she forgave him also - and then he was gone.

His memorial service was unique to say the least - his wife didn't shed a tear - Mom came with Debbie and I and she cried more than his wife did - she got closure and she needed it. One thing that happened was I was reintroduced to four of my five uncles. They were in shock that Deb and I were there - and so happy. I am not a real tight huggy type, but all four of them grabbed me and wouldn't let go. They had missed me. For 43 years they knew I was around, but didn't get to see me. That was a bonus - and will continue to be one as we try to establish a relationship.

So, closure on that part of my life, and yet a new door opened. I just hope I have the courage to open the door and walk through it.